Until one has loved an animal, part of the soul remains unawakened

Until one has loved an animal, part of the soul remains unawakened


Happy Cat Lady

Happy Cat Lady

Oct 31, 1989

Halloween Cats

Dressed as a witch for Halloween. Put a cape and babushka on X so he looked like one too. We stood on the porch with all seven pumpkins lit up and had fun handing out treats

Bobby cat joined us. Rusty Tom came by and I locked him in the cellar with food so no weirdo's would harm him.

Took X trick or treating later. He was recalcitrant to be seen in a witch costume. We met some dudes in the alley who laughed at what they thought were two old ladies.

Oct 28, 1989

And the Winner Is...

Went to cat show with Kathryn where she showed Pat's cat, Lasagna who won some ribbons. Took Xavier with me and we walked around and looked at all the different breeds in their cages, but didn't watch much of the show part.

I loved looking at the domestic pet cats that were there and fantasizing that my cats could do as well winning ribbons. Magic, yes, for sure. He is so graceful and has such a good sleek body. He's a classic. Gypsy... well maybe not. Shes such a chunk of muscle. If she were a person she would be called dowdy.

Darling Clementine, Keli, for sure would be a winner!

Oct 27, 1989

Bird Cats

Bought a bag of birdseed to feed the birds. I had run out and was concerned they wouldn't have enough to eat. Especially the big blue jay that comes by.

I scattered the seed around on my porch. The cats watched through the window as if they hadn't seen birds before.

Oct 21, 1989

Stranger Cat

October 21

A strange cat came on the porch, very large Calico (could be some relative of Keli's).

Bobby cat tried to warn her away. I went out on the porch to intervene. Gypsy shot out between my legs, ignoring Bobby and headed for the stranger cat. It's funny how she fought the other cat by laying down and fighting upwards and furiously scratching strange cat's belly with her claws. The other cat just seemed to not know what to do.

I pulled myself together enough to yell at Bypsy and she slunk back inside, tal all busy.

Rusty Tom, in the meantime had come running and finished shooing away Strange Cat.

The kittens, though not nearby to the scene of action were all freaked out.

Oct 19, 1989

Snow Cats

SNOW TODAY! First time in history... 7 inches. My Bones feel it.

I'm bummed out because I can't enjoy the beauty of it. Mad at myself for not appreciating it. But pain gets in the way.

It's funny, how the cats all jump up on the windowsill to look at it. If I had the energy I would open the door to see if they would go out in it.

Oct 11, 1989

Kitty Pneumonia

I've been not well again and then this morning awoke today to discover that Keli had a serious lung problem. She probably aspirated the flea spray that B put on her last night.

Then when I asked him about it he admits to not covering the kittens heads like I told him to. Why can't he just do things the way I say or at least offer up his objections face to face like a man. Instead he goes behind my back and does it his own way, without respecting that I know about these things.

The rebellous child gets even with mommy for being sick so much and needing his help. Why does he have to act this way. Like he has a secret grudge to get even at the expense of helpless kittens.

I took Keli to the vet and he gave her a shot and some penicillin to prevent pneumonia. I was pretty worried about her all day. She kept "standing up" on her haunches, and couldn't tolerate lying down. She wouldn't nurse or eat or drink. And she was shaky from standing so long. I put her in the bathroom with steam, and kept watching how she was doing, and comforting her. I kept rubbing and lightly thumping on her chest between her arms. She seemed to like that as she kept raising her chest up higher and higher, and her rasping became less. By late pm she wanted to come out to play.

I'm so glad she's better

Oct 10, 1989

Oct 9, 1989

Moon Kitty

Caught a glimpse of the moon through clouds and was struck with angst, pathos, pain and loneliness.

Oh, Moon, Moon! Does your light glow to remind me of who I am? How will I find myself again?

But the pain of my loss is intolerable to bear.

Keli Kitten wound herself around my ankles, but went away when I started to cry hard.

Oct 7, 1989

Neck Wrap Kitten

Felt ambitious so I cleaned garage, weeded backyard, went to have car checked, stopped at a yard sale. Got home, cleaned house some, went down cellar and threw dirty clothes in the washer. Potted some plants and placed them on the new shelves.

At the end of such a day, I am exhausted and wonder why I did so much. I should be resting.

Keli cat is a love. She lies on my neck while I read. I think I should spend more time doing this instead of wearing myself out. Maybe she would like that too.

Oct 4, 1989

Kitten Comfort

Spent the morning sleeping off the mophine. I was in such pain. Feeling less dizzy by noon.

Kelly kitten slept with me on my neck. Does she know I'm in pain? Does she want to comfort me? No, She is too young to have a concept of theis. But, she is endearing herself to me quickly. And I feel comforted by her.

Oct 3, 1989

Cat Sniffs Blood

Surgery on my lower rib cage on right side of back for lump.

They couldn't get it to stop bleeding. Took hour and half.

I am in such unbeliable pain for having a simple lump removed. Must be all the blood gathering under my skin. The bruising is now spread all up and down my back.

Gyspy keeps jumping up on the bed and sniffing me.

Oct 2, 1989

Midnite Burial

Yesterday we ran around doing errands all day long. Didn't get back until very late. X and I discoverd that the little black stray outdoor cat that we've been feeding was dead in the alley.

We buried him at midnite. Now, the neighbors must be sure we are doing satanic rites burying a dead black cat at midnite. Yikes.